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CHAPTER 1
I AM BORN
(from David Copperfield by
Charles Dickens)
Whether I shall turn out to be the hero of my own life, or whether that
station will be held by anybody else, these pages must show. To begin my
life with the beginning of my life, I record that I was born (as I have
been informed and believe) on a Friday, at twelve o'clock at night. It was
remarked that the clock began to strike, and I began to cry,
simultaneously.
In consideration of the day and hour of my birth, it was declared by the
nurse, and by some sage women in the neighbourhood who had taken a lively
interest in me several months before there was any possibility of our
becoming personally acquainted, first, that I was
destined to be unlucky in life; and secondly,
that I was privileged to see ghosts and spirits; both these gifts
inevitably attaching, as they believed, to all unlucky infants of either
gender, born towards the small hours on a Friday night. |
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I was born at
Blunderstone, in Suffolk, or 'there by', as they say in Scotland. I was a
posthumous child. My father's eyes had closed upon the light of this world
six months, when mine opened on it. There is something strange to me, even
now, in the reflection that he never saw me; and something stranger yet in
the shadowy remembrance that I have of my first childish associations with
his white grave-stone in the churchyard, and of the indefinable compassion
I used to feel for it lying out alone there in the dark night, when our
little parlour was warm and bright with fire and candle, and the doors of
our house were - almost cruelly, it seemed to me sometimes - bolted and
locked against it. |
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An aunt of my
father's, and consequently a great-aunt of mine, of whom I shall have more
to relate by and by, was the principal magnate of our family. Miss
Trotwood, or Miss Betsey, as my poor mother always called her, when she
sufficiently overcame her dread of this formidable personage to mention
her at all (which was seldom), had been married to a husband younger than
herself, who was very handsome, except in the sense of the homely adage. |
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This was the
state of matters, on the afternoon of, what I may be excused for calling,
that eventful and important Friday. I can make no claim therefore to have
known, at that time, how matters stood; or to have any remembrance,
founded on the evidence of my own senses, of what follows. |
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'I tell you I
have a presentiment that it must be a girl,' returned Miss Betsey. 'Don't
contradict. From the moment of this girl's birth, child, I intend to be
her friend. I intend to be her godmother, and I beg you'll call her Betsey
Trotwood Copperfield. There must be no mistakes in life with THIS Betsey
Trotwood. There must be no trifling with HER affections, poor dear. She
must be well brought up, and well guarded from reposing any foolish
confidences where they are not deserved. I must make that MY care.' |
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'Well,
ma'am,' resumed Mr. Chillip, as soon as he had courage, 'I am happy to
congratulate you. All is now over, ma'am, and well over.'
During the five minutes or so that Mr. Chillip devoted to the delivery of
this oration, my aunt eyed him narrowly.
'How is she?' said my aunt, folding her arms with her bonnet still tied on
one of them.
'Well, ma'am, she will soon be quite comfortable, I hope,' returned Mr.
Chillip. 'Quite as comfortable as we can expect a young mother to be,
under these melancholy domestic circumstances. There cannot be any
objection to your seeing her presently, ma'am. It may do her good.'
'And SHE. How is SHE?' said my aunt, sharply.
Mr. Chillip laid his head a little more on one side, and looked at my aunt
like an amiable bird.
'The baby,' said my aunt. 'How is she?'
'Ma'am,' returned Mr. Chillip, 'I apprehended you had known. It's a boy.'
My aunt said never a word, but took her bonnet by the strings, in the
manner of a sling, aimed a blow at Mr. Chillip's head with it, put it on
bent, walked out, and never came back. She vanished like a discontented
fairy; or like one of those supernatural beings, whom it was popularly
supposed I was entitled to see; and never came back any more. |
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